Archive | November, 2011


27 Nov


If you are in love with a woman in this zodiac be prepared to be very happy or be very sorry. She is a very busy person with her own matters similar to a guy in this zodiac. She is able to live by herself without any guy in her life, a very strong person indeed.

Not because she does not have a dream guy, but if she can not find such person, so what. Because she thinks she could do anything that a man can do. She is a leader , a real confident type.

She likes to do things by herself, such as serving herself, opening the door herself. Because she thinks waiting for a helping hand is a waste of time, and she is not patient enough to wait around for that. If she starts to ask you out, do not think it’s because she’s so into you, but because she thinks it is a waste of time to wait for you to be the one who asked. Which in her mind those relationships don’t last anyways. It was just about fun for her. Or showing she can get what she wants if she needed to.

She likes a cool and collected guy who will sometime ACT like he is ignoring her, so that he has a chance to show his own confidence. But in actuality doesn’t stop for a second taking his attention off of her which she likes feeling that in awe feeling she get’s from  her partner. That he continually is falling in love with her and no other woman exists no matter what.  She like to guess her man’s reaction, but at the same time she likes to have many men wanting her. She is a daring type who could  do things differently from other people in her same society. She dares to fight for what she thinks belongs to her.

Even though she acts confident she mostly feesl lonely and alone. If she breaks up with someone , she won’t show any emotion even though deep down inside it is all pain and agony. But not for too long  though, she will return back to be the cheery and merry person again, because she looks at the world positively and has “Faith” in the word “Love”.

She has more men friends than women friends, so do not be a jealous type if you date her. She could be slightly jealous, but she hates jealous guys. She loves “Freedom” before and after marriage , her freedom has to be the same. She likes you to trust her, even if she does not trust you anyhow.

She likes to be the one who is “Right”, so if you argue with her , let her win if it is not a big deal for you in that subject. She is a straight forward type, so if she does not love you anymore, she will just tell you straight to your face. Her love and relationship are always real.  So be prepared if she gets to a point that she is done and over be ready to leave, she is not testing you.

She is not a vulnerable type, so do not have to worry about her, she will survive by herself. If she is with you when you get sick, she will certainly take care and look after you, even look after all your means and responsibilities. Do not have secrets with her, she hates it and really can piss her off badly. When she is sad , be understanding. When she is happy, be happy with her, she likes that.

You will not get bored with this type of girl. Someone who is close to her will know that deep down beneath that confident and cold hearted person, she is just as fragile as any woman. She is a fun and talkative person and she likes to tease you. Do not let her talk alone, if you do she will leave.

She has many type of jobs because she believes what a man can do, I can do. If you want her to work for you, forget it. When she is in love, she will just leave her job in the day time just to come to see you, but not for long she will go back to work seriously again. Prepare to live and love with a “Working Woman” then you will be OK.

If shes mad, find a shelter for the “Hurricane”  because it is here! Her bad temper will last very shortly though. She is not a revenge type and will not think of “pay Back” time. Most people might think of her as “One of the guys”, but in fact she is a 100% woman. She is easily hurt, so be nice with her. If she really loves you, then you are lucky because she is honest, truthful and will never bore you. Understand that sometimes she will be over confident and sometimes like to have power or act bossy.



26 Nov

Tears rush to my eyes and they start to pour out…

I have been living in a safe spot for almost 6 months now…

So many secrets to protect Me and I find myself needing change…

I always think it’s my past I’m missing. But it’s my past that always shows me I want more. To stop being sorry that I dream big and follow my heart. For the longest time now I was under a spell thinking I was settling but quite the opposite.

A blast from the past moment reminded me how much better My Life is now… That although things do not always work out the way we’d like, we have no control over other people. All we can control is how we react to them. How honest we are with others about our genuine reaction, and most importantly how honest with ourselves we are about what we feel. And why we choose what we choose, knowing the choice between wrong and right. Yet us making that choice regardless.

I feel our World lacks the everyday heroes and dreamers. I have been under the illusion I am not a patient person or graceful. However I realize now it’s quite the contrary. I don’t know anyone else who is as patient as I am for true love. The whole deal. I have been hurt beyond comprehension. And yet I still dream and hold onto what I believe. Grace is going through Life and being strong enough to take the hits make something out of it with a smile on your face. And still wait for the one thing my heart believes despite all the doubt that keeps getting presented to me it might not exist anymore.

I find it harder and harder to find guys out there that are actually MEN. And women that can claim to be an actual WOMAN. It’s as if everyone complains about everything and has some excuse for it. Look Life is not easy. Get over it, move on from that. Stop expecting things to just land in your lap. If they do bethankful they do because that is not reality or the norm. The things that matter are not easy to obtain. And now more than ever there are temptations and illusions to trick us. We’ve allowed our Lives to be subjected to so much corruption. That we feel we have the merit to proclaim that if we don’t get what we want when we want it, or after WE feel we’ve put enough work and time into it then Oh well “their loss” … No sir. It’s not. It is something we learn in a matter of time that it is our loss and pay for that type of mentality later.

Life is short that is the message that screams from every song and movie lately. So we must hurry. We must think of ourselves first. Heck I just went to therapy the other day for the first time in a long time. I was stunned at the advice I was being given. We wonder how our World has become so selfish and depressed it’s because even the professionals are telling those who are trying to do the right thing and find guidance and help to think of themselves first. Now don’t get me wrong I might be a different case, however I was given a brain and heart and have every intention to always use it and challenge what I’m being told. I don’t think it’s such a destructive trait to care for others feelings. Yes every now and then I need to make sure I put myself more as a priority. But to always put ME first is only going to leave me with ME.

For those that have followed all my other blogs and read everything I’ve written (thank you btw <3) you know that I don’t curse the bad things that have happened to me. If anything I embrace them, cherish them, use them. I feel in those times is why I was given a chance to become better, stronger, more compassionate towards other people. It is a CHOICE I had in every situation. Some I caught onto right away. Others I had to learn over repeatedly. And some I’m still learning obviously.  I always attribute it to “Am I on a merry go round?” Because even if it’s a one I want to be on, why would I want to keep going round in circles until I get sick? It would ruin the ride. There are other rides. Don’t stay on one so long you get to the point you break it or it becomes a ride that you become to hate and resent. You should always be trying to improve and go to the next level. Too much of anything is very unhealthy if we have not learned that lesson yet with eating habits. Stop listening to all these experts their advice changes all the time. Life is about balance. I’m not saying you can’t ever enjoy staying somewhere, or be proud of whom you are… Just why stop? Learn to embrace each moment but why has it been deemed so wrong to save for tomorrow? Why do we have to do everything NOW?. Again even if you love the merry go round you’re on doesn’t mean you have to leave the park but balance out your time so it stays something you will forever enjoy.

Again don’t get me wrong if you’ve been given an opportunity, a second chance yes by all means make the most of it. Don’t make foolish errors where it could land you in same result as the time before. But don’t get so clouded in today that you forget you might still wake up tomorrow 😉 And that your choices today will effect every moment after that.

I am someone that LOVES adventure, my body screams passion, and my soul is connected, as well as my heart doesn’t stop beating to its own music. I don’t care what’s in style or how others expect me to live my Life. I know what’s important to me and matters. Do you? Are you leading a Life that reflects that? Attributing to what you earnestly desire.  Or are you going with the crowd because that’s what society is telling you how you should live? What you should want? So you live this double Life. And are truly never happy. I’m not perfect and even on my journey to becoming a better person, and the things I’m working hard for I make errors. But I assure you I keep it to a minimum and not repeating lessons I’ve learned. It’s not always easy to make the choices I have to. But I know they are the ones I NEED to make to get where I WANT to be. The difference is I’ve made my peace with that. I know there are things I will miss out on. I will have hard days. And I might even lose some people I don’t want to let go. But I’ve made a cautious decision it will be worth it in the end. Even if I die tomorrow and never got to “get there” I will rest in peace knowing my Life reflecting me trying to get there.

So I wasn’t able to finish this blog yesterday. So my inspiration might not all be the same but as I re-read what I wrote I am passionate about it and in agreement. And the point I’m trying to make and hit on without going into novels of each subject is that yes Life is short but it also can be long. Life is all about balance. Regarding any type of habit. You shouldn’t shut everyone out, but you shouldn’t also let everyone in. Be a good person but learn to be firm about your standards. Yes you can break the rules every now and then for yourself and others, but don’t live a Life that’s reckless. Stop living in fear you’re going to die in the next moment and living in a way that reflects fear.

None of us can control when our time is up. But we can control the legacy of our Life that we will leave behind. And I firmly believe if you are doing what makes you happy and feeling fulfilled or en route to making it happen you won’t be focusing so much about “Life is Short” because you’ll know you’re doing everything with the time you had.

“Why not focus on how your Life can be imprinted forever instead of Living for just today” -xoxMM